embersfromashes

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Solace Lost by embersfromashes, literature

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Solace Lost

I dwell within the cold anguished shadows of your absence Curled up in the corner of my heart that was your place Kindred creature, rescuer, best friend, Familiar with my every mood constantly giving comfort I needed only to look down into that loving aqua gaze And pain and loneliness receded I knew your deepest fear yet failed you when dire was the need for protection There can be no lashing out, no angry accusations I alone own the burden of this blame If only I'd allowed the guidance of your heart As often as you followed mine You would still be here with me Haunted by the memory of you crying out in agony and fright I can not

Shadow Animal by embersfromashes, literature

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Shadow Animal

Cast out Relegated to dim shadows in uncertain corners Invisible to those that draw the strings, Forgotten So easily minimized and unimportant Depleted profoundly used Now useless Never fit in anyway Never did I now become what they've wanted for so long, A barely present shadow animal, No harm no foul but not good enough I just disappear At least they're finally Being painfully honest Open season on shadow animals Please Shoot me

Regrets by embersfromashes, literature

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Regrets

You stared at me with chill blue eyes, Said you knew of all my lies, That you can't believe a word I ever say, I wanted to shout "that's not true!" I only wanted time with you, And couldn't get it any other way I loved you dad that's not a lie, And always hoped that you would try, to say you loved me too Before goodbye You said that I had shamed you, That I'd let you down, Running fingers through your hair, That seems more white than brown, And I notice that your skin once smooth Is lined and creased and gray, If it is my life that I lead Why should you have to pay? I loved you each and every day Only wish I'd heard you sa

Time by embersfromashes, literature

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Time

There was a time i felt desirable, beautiful, sexy, intelligent, loveable, wanted. There was a time i felt womanly, aroused by the words, touch, and feel of a man. There was a time when words, soft, mellow as the touch of a butterfly's wing, could soothe, comfort, and lessen any doubts, easing the blows of unpleasant reality. There was a time i felt sure of direction, empowered to persevere in any chosen quest. There was a time of seeming security, comfort, a feeling of inpenetrable safety. There was a time when mind was sharp, quick of recall, stalwart in knowledge. There was a time of enthusiasm, enjoyment, delight in accomplishment

Ruminations by embersfromashes, literature

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Ruminations

Betty Davis eyes and Early Times Cluttered dirty room, No job and broke Tired, bored, emotions flattened Roommate sleeping, no hot water Staying home on vice night, not making money Soiled useless uniform laying crumpled in the corner No more burger queen Mounting frustrations ahead for me now Fleetwood Mac cheerfully advising "Don't stop thinking about tomorrow" As though it will be any more remarkable than today Life is like AM radio, same format all the time, The same tired, worn routines playing out A seemingly endless loop of monotony

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Arrival by embersfromashes, literature

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Arrival

Arrival Torn, Driven, Unguided. Incapacitated by brilliance. Inspiration rending way through barriers not realized. Enlightenment glistening on the brink of arrival. Mourning for losses not recognized, Yet not yearning to retrieve them. The cost too extravagant, The yield insignificant. I am nearly who I want to be. In the present fully feeling. Still knowing there is more. Hesitation losing patience, Weary of the lull. Fulfillment once a fantasy Now a tangible essence. Recognition. I am me. Comfortable. Stronger than I knew. Curious of everything. Devouring life, Savoring it's lessons. Refusing to own Unnecesssary

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Mardis Gras Tapestry by embersfromashes, visual art

Mardis Gras Tapestry

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About embersfromashes

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United States
Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: the only one I could afford to buy in this unaffordable state.
Favourite genre of music: Hard Rock, Metal, Industrial, Big Bands
Favourite photographer: Ansel Adams
Favourite style of art: Fantasy ala Heavy Metal, nature and architectural photog.
Operating System: XP Pro, 98SE, DOS 6.2, learnin deb/gnu, BSD, and Suse
MP3 player of choice: WinAmp It really whips the Llamas ass!
Shell of choice: Pasta
Wallpaper of choice: Skysong2 (Digital Blasphemy)
Skin of choice: Deer skin
Favourite cartoon character: Spawn
Personal Quote: If you've stopped learning you've probably died.

Favourite Visual Artist

Royo

Favourite Movies

Interview With A Vampire,As Good As it Gets,RHPS,Princess Bride,Memoirs of a Geisha,V for Vendetta

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Disturbed, Halestorm, Linkin' Park, NIN, Godsmack

Favourite Writers

Jacqueline Carey, Anne Rice, Lewis Carroll, Ogden Nash

Favourite Games

Tradewars, LORD, TextTwist

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Tools of the Trade

Brain, human emotion, pen, pc, Canon Powershot G-2, Pentax SLR, etc.

Other Interests

geeking, writing, leather, learning, reading

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embersfromashes

Aug 18, 2009

Changes and Deviations

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Well it's been a while since I updated here. Life is ever changing and remaining the same concurrently. My SO (PantherProwLs on here)and I just got married last Friday on my birthday, after nearly 8 years together we figured the relationship truly was a keeper. He is very good about remembering my birthday so this will make it a no brainer for him to remember our anniversary. I still have a job, still spending most of my free time during the week getting to and from said job, so haven't had much time for things I once did. Having a job is a *good* thing these days though so I don't mind the commute as much as I otherwise would. I finally h

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embersfromashes

Aug 10, 2008

My Friend

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Today marks the one year anniversary of my Hercules' death. It has been a very difficult time for me and it seems it shan't hurt any less any time soon. We have Dart and Minx but they are not my friends though they are family. There will never be another animal so much a part of me, so capable of feeling exactly my mood and doing just the right thing to improve it. If ever a cat were an empath it was Herc and it is to him that I owe the fact I'm still here fighting to get by in life as he saved me many times from just giving up and ending the struggle. I miss you Herc and always will.

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embersfromashes

Jun 30, 2008

Grrrr

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I've been browsing, favoriting and commenting most of today and now a lot of the pieces I faved aren't showing up in my favorites yet when I manage to re-locate them elsewhere on the site it shows I've already faved them and I have to remove and refave to get them to show in my favorites. In my gallery there are 6-7 or more of my deviations not showing, all that shows is a fella placeholder. I already submitted a bug report to DA and spoke with someone in help chat that said it's probably system lag but I don't believe it is. They reported having a problem earlier with IE users saying they couldn't see anything on any pages but the first page